Just to let everyone know..I suck with grammar so you are warned...Forgive me if Spock is ooc...have fun reading...~runs away and hides~



Jim Kirk was anxious, he had just gotten the news that Spock had awaken. Jim quickly strode through the corridors entered the turbolift and headed for sickbay to greet his friend. When he got there Spock was speaking with Dr. McCoy.

"Well Spock, you seem to be in better shape than when we brought you in. That healing trance you go through seems to have done the trick."

"For once I agree with you doctor. I do feel well. Will I be able to go back on duty?"

"I don't think that's a good idea."

"I do promise doctor to not over exert myself. My duties will be light."

"All right. Make sure you follow your own rules. If you don't you'll be back in sickbay so fast it'll make..."

"Yes doctor, I shall comply."

Jim had listened to their conversation without being noticed. It wasn't easy, he wanted so much to see his friend but decided against it. He'd have the opportunity on the bridge. Jim felt a sudden burst of adrenaline hit him. The symptoms were always the same. He could hear his heart loudly beating in his ears. His sinuses would clear. He felt lightheaded and then it was gone. Jim quickly left sickbay and headed back to the bridge.

"That's strange, I swear I heard the door open. Just a second Spock." McCoy quickly went to investigate and noticed no one. But McCoy was no fool. A faint smell of cologne lingered. McCoy knew who it came from. ' Damn fool', McCoy thought. ' The bastard was here and listened to everything we said and didn't have the courage to come and see his friend. God Jim when will you stop living in denial,' said McCoy to himself.

"Is there a problem doctor?"

"No, there isn't."

"I am somewhat surprised that the captain has not come to visit. I...felt his presence in sickbay. Him being there helped immensely in my recovery."

"Yes, he was here for you Spock. He didn't want to leave your side. He was upset though, with good reason. You should look before you leap. It will get you killed one of these days. I may not be there to save you next time."

"I sensed his anger towards me but only for a moment. I know what I did was foolhearty. Jim would have certainly gotten out of the way. I see now that he would have. I do not know why I did what I did."

"Spock, I don't know if we should have this conversation. It's up to you if you feel like talking. My liquor cabinet is open and ready for service. Do you have a minute before you go to the bridge?"

Spock thought for a while and decided that he needed answers and that maybe McCoy had them. He decided to take him up on his offer.

"I am officially on duty, but I do believe one drink will not effect my judgement. A gin and tonic if you do not mind."

McCoy smiled and realized that Spock wasn't all that bad after all.

"A gin and tonic it is. I believe we have a few things to discuss my Vulcan friend."

"Indeed."

The captain was back in his command chair fidgeting. His stomach was tense and it made him sick. He kept thrumming his fingers next to his togal switch. ' Where the hell is he? If i keep turning my head one more time I'm gonna get torticollis.'

Jim thought of calling sickbay but decided against it. He was gonna wait til it killed him.

Back in sickbay McCoy and Spock continued their conversation.

"Doctor, I believe I have strong ties to the captain."

"Well, atleast one of us is not living in denial." said McCoy in a whisper.

"I am sorry doctor I did not hear your statement."

McCoy pretending he did not know what Spock was talking asked him to repeat himself.

"What kind of ties are we talking about Spock?" said McCoy faking it.

Spock was fidgety, he looked like he was sweating which he never does. He had finished his alcoholic beverage and asked for another. McCoy thinking to himself felt a sense of deja vu.

"Spock I don't know if another drink is wise."

"I believe you are right but I would like another. If you find that I am intoxicated you may administer your concoctions to how you humans say: 'sober me up.' said Spock with a small grin. " Actually I can assure you alcohol does not affect Vulcan's in the same way as Humans."

McCoy stared at Spock surprisingly.

"Gee Spock your human side is wanting to peek out alot today. All right one more and that's it."

McCoy gave him another and waited for the Vulcan to speak.

Spock took a sip of his beverage and set it down. He got up and began to pace making McCoy really believe in deja vu.

"I do not know how to explain what I am feeling. I believe it has been with me for quite some time. I felt that I should speak about it before it consumed me. I have been Jim's friend for the duration of our voyage. I felt something stir in me the moment I met him. He is a very fascinating individual. I have never met a human who makes me feel calm in his presence. He accepts me for who I am, and he listens to what I have to say and does not judge. My Vulcan heart stirs when he is near me. His smell drives me with desire, my blood burns when I think of him. He invades my dreams at night, I anticipate his touch upon mine."

"O.K. Spock, I get it. You have the hots for him."

"I do not understand your statement."

"It means your acting like a horny teenager who wants to get laid."

"I believe I understood that."

"Good, because I really don't want to give you another example. Now what do we do about it?"

"I do not know. I care for Jim but I do not know what he feels for me."

"I can't speak for Jim. All I know is that you won't find out standing here with me. Go to the bridge and sense what he's feeling. Maybe he just needs a little push in the right direction."

"Very well, I shall see him on the bridge."

"Whatever happens never forget he cares a great deal."

"Thank you Leonard, you are a good friend."

Spock left sickbay and headed for the bridge to greet his captain and perchance maybe more than that.